Tuesday, October 14, 2014

Beauty in Pain

Wow, it has been so long since I have written here. There are a few blog posts that begin similar to that; except this time, by far, it has been the longest time I've gone without writing: seven months.

I wish I could say that what has kept me away from writing are incredible and exciting things going on in my life. But that isn't the entire truth. It's definetly been an interesting journey the last few months. God promises in Philippians 2:13, " for it is God who works in you to will and to act in order to fulfill his good purpose." He has been doing exactly that, working in me. 

If I had things my way, certain situations would have panned out differently in my life. Yet, God being who is he, still continues to lavish his blessings on me,  surprising me with an even better plan. 

Last Thursday, I had to leave my boyfriend in the airport in Costa Rica. It was a really hard, sad, and emotional day. We've been dating now for a little over four months, and he lives over 3000 miles away so we spend time together very infrequently. Thursday was a really long day flying and then driving a few hours back to my house. At the end of the day I was crying and a song came to my mind by Philips, Craig, and Dean, "You Are God Alone." 


                                                                 You are God alone

From before time began
You were on Your throne
Your are God alone
And right now
In the good times and bad
You are on Your throne
You are God alone

Those lyrics hit me like a ton of bricks. I felt like a God was using it to say, "I'm on the throne. I am  sovereign, and I love you." All of a sudden, I felt such peace and comfort in my heart from the Holy Spirit. It's barely been a week since I've returned but I've never cried out to God, my only help, like this before. It has been a difficult transition, but I am leaning fully on God. I know He is at work in me and will continue to. I know He is acquainted with the little details of my life and cares for me. What is better than to be called a child of God, a daughter of the one true King? I'm beyond blessed and thankful for how he loves and cares for me.