Thursday, August 30, 2012

with groanings too deep for words

 But if we hope for what we do not see, we wait for it with patience.

 Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words. -- Romans 8:25-26

these verses have been on my mind a lot lately. i'm growing up and i'm learning anew how vital it is to trust God with all my life. it is easier to try to take on situations in my life, thinking i know what the best outcome will be. and i don't, and never, ever, ever will be in control of my circumstances. it's funny to me, to be in this place where God has me. i remember looking up to older girls in my church with awe, "their lives are so wonderful! they have it all together, life is great," only to find out that i'm in the same place without a clue in the world. writing helps me think out loud, so bear with me, but i think the more and more i age (i know, i sound like i'm 80 looking back on my childhood) the more i began to get a glimpse, an inkling, a small grasp, of the depth of God and the frailty of man. as i grow up and the parental grip on my life is lessening, the greater responsibility i have to wholly entrust my being, my circumstances, and--well-- all of me to Christ. i can't depend of my parents for everything. it is so comforting to know that the Holy Spirit dwells in me and that is one of the ways i can hear from God. i don't always know how to put into words what i'm pondering or feeling, but the Spirit intercedes. God knows me better than anyone and He promises to not despise a broken and contrite heart.(psalm 51:17)

at the beginning of the year, i made a poster with two words that i thought the Lord would use in my life, two words that i know i needed to work on. these days it is so easy to get bogged down, saddened, and sucked into the pressures of this life. ||BUT|| God. but, God? BUT God, yes God, He is faithful. He was faithful to the israelites and he is faithful to me, today.  specifically in fulfilling his promises to me. the two words i decided upon were perseverance and trust. these two words are and have been so relevant to my life. january one, i didn't know that i'd dislocate my knee cap. i also did not know what God would do in my life several months down the road. what he is doing in my life, several months down the road, is giving me the opportunity to intern with the ministry i partnered along side with this past summer in costa rica. i'm still praying and trusting God to lead me, but i'm trusting in faith, that He will shut the door when necessary. my first step of faith was signing up for a spanish class at my college, which has been going great. i'm just amazed by the Lord because really does work in miraculous ways.

Thursday, August 16, 2012

I'm gushing!

I am so thankful for all the things that God has been doing in my life.

I'm so joyful! 

I could explode at any second with loud laughter.

I love Jesus.

I'm learning so much from the bible.

I'm extremely blessed.

Smiling comes naturally to me anyway, but I cannot stop smiling.

I want the whole earth to experience what I'm experiencing.

I don't know about my future and I'm fine with that because I'm resting in God's hands.

I'm thankful for my job.

I love the believers that I fellowship with.

School is starting!!!!

and, I'm a nerd because I love to learn.

school supplies make me giddy with organizing excitement.

My love for Christ, for other people, and for life is overflowing.

i'm gushing. :)

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

In the midst of it all, God is faithful.

Hebrews 11:1 "Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen."

This picture is my outlook on life is right about now. I feel the water rushing past me, and I know the Lord is working in my life. Yet, I also hear the distant, falling water, crashing to the earth beneath, reminding me I don't know what is in store for my life.  It is an unknown destination that God has already prepared. I'm aware of God's redirecting my path because his ways are higher than mine. I'm on the edge. I'm drifting towards the steep drop of unfamiliarity and I couldn't be more satisfied where God has me. I don't know all that the Lord will allow me to do in the coming years, but I'm overwhelmed by his peace. Without any cliché motive in my heart, I happily and firmly declare, "Here I am. Send me!"

Wednesday, August 8, 2012

You don't know you're beautiful

these are my thoughts regarding the culture that girls currently live in. I am not writing directly to any one person. it is my intent to plead with girls everywhere to realize their worth. I do not intend to offend anyone.
~ xxxxx ~
Dear Friends, 

You don't know you're beautiful. 

And the reason I know that is because of the way you feel it necessary to flaunt yourself on social media. You are beautiful, can't you see that? I know that you want attention, but flashing your skin won't do the trick. What you seek now is immediate satisfaction, which will begin go away just as soon as it began. It makes my heart ache to see you saddened by the fact that you don't have as many "likes" or  comments on your photos. Please know that the foundation on your face is worthless when you can have Christ as your foundation. He see's you as his daughter. You are precious in his sight, and if no one seems to think you are pretty, Jesus see's you as stunning because of His work on the cross. He died to save YOU. How could he not love someone he died to save?

The culture we live in today says to wear clothes that barely hide you inside of the material, but you can be clothed in righteousness. Men are attracted to what excites them. Let God draw the right man to your beautiful heart for Christ and not to the opportunity of instant physical pleasure. Save yourself before you get into a mess you can't crawl out of. When you protect your brother's eyes,(guy friends, boyfriends, literal family and anyone in between) you can build friendships. Seek out friends before a relationship and save yourself some drama; it'll be worth it for your sake. You are young; enjoy the time that God has given you. Mistakes that are made now can become habits for later. Avoid traps and seek fun without stupidity. 

Beauty is vain, and charm is deceitful, but a Woman who fears the Lord is to be praised. Don't you see? All that the world values is meaningless to God. He loves, treasures, and delights in you only because when He see's you, He see's no mess, He see's Jesus' work on the cross. What you think matters now, does not. Make-up to hide your "flaws", clothes for unnecessary attention, sassy attitudes, and curse words do not, I repeat, do not make you any better to God. Now, I've listed make-up and clothes, though, these things are not bad. However, when you obsess over them for the wrong attention you can open doors to pathways you'd never thought you'd enter. I know you'll think I'm crazy, but your parents love you. They want to protect you. I know, believe me I know, you think they don't understand. But they do. They enforce rules and seem harsh because it's a crazy world out there. They love you and want what is best for you, even though it doesn't always "feel" good.

Please, do what you can now to protect yourself.

A fellow girl, sister, and friend,