Friday, May 25, 2012

An Update: Graduation!

{my dad's parents}

{my parents}
So, I graduated from highschool!! : ) I can't believe I did it. Well, that my parents and I did it. I'm thrilled to say the least. I'm apart of a homeschooling group that throws a graduation and it was very nice and quite formal. I, however, decided that I'd mix it up a bit. As I was walking across the stage I received my diploma case from the commencement speaker, took my solo picture, and as I was walking off I yelled, " FREEDOM!" Yeah, I know, subtle, oh so subtle. My parents were kind of shocked.  Oh well! Got to make memories, yeah? : ) Later that night a bunch of friends showed up to my open house. I'm blessed to know awesome people of all ages who came out to congratulate me. 

My mom put together one heck of a table of food. It was so delicious! She said she feels like she now knows how to have an open house. haha. She's open to hosting another sometime :)

Yesterday, my family and my mom's parents (who are down for about another week) went to dinner and the beach. Oh, it was so beautiful! The sky was several radiant shades of blue and so was the water. Believe it or not, we stumbled into a soon to be wedding--on a thursday! ha! It was kind of neat. I mean what's better than no shoes at a wedding? Nothing.  :) 

We went to a local resturant, Osteens. It was very yummy. It's a tradition that my grandpa, my mom's dad, we call pappy, holds. "And I don't want to stop now!"

After a stroll on the beach we went to get Rita's ice. Which basically is the best place to get italian ice. YUM to the max. I got a passion fruit gelati. Gelati is the bestest creamiest well, cream that tops the ice. 

Now you are all caught up. : ) Besides working a ton I've been trying to soak up this non school filled season.

Monday, May 14, 2012

Oh, to join in your song

The words from Christy Nockles' song "Sing Along"  have been resounding in my ears.

Great God, wrap your arms around this world tonight
 around the world tonight.
and when you hear our cries sing through the night
 so we can join in your song and sing along

The words "join in your song" particularly struck me as I was driving home. Typically when I listen to this song I think about the enormity of God's grasp for the world. I think of huge hands cradling the globe. I think about the "wrap your arms around this world" grasp, it's mind blowing for me. However, today I was thinking about how my life is a string of notes in God's song, not my own. As I begin to grow, as well as everyone else, our lives begin to morph into one sophisticated, composed orchestra directed by God. Just as music is not always happy + peppy, neither is my life. While I'm imagining this beautiful analogy, what resonates within me the deepest, is that I have the opportunity to join in His song.
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Friday, May 11, 2012

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I turned 18. It's hard to believe, but it's also very exciting.

I helped my brother cook a seven course French meal for his birthday (we're a year and eight days apart)

Finished my math for the week! only three more weeks then i'm done done. My only class left is math.

I can't believe I'm done with highschool. It's such a growing up moment. We had our co-op graduation ceremony and it was very sweet, even though it was small. :)

I turned in my new availability so hopefully I'll be able to work more often to save up for school in the fall.

I've been contemplating how great God is. He brought me so far and I'm just peaceful about the future.

I'm super glad it is friday--even though I don't have much school I like it because I get to go to work tomorrow, I really love my job!

I've been looking through my posts and I think I write a lot of deep things. I don't know if that's bad, i guess it's kind of boring, but i post about what i think about.

I'm going to be doing some redecorating soon, I hope to post pictures once I'm done. Have a great friday!

Monday, May 7, 2012

I have to admit

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 I have to admit, it's kind of weird to see your own face pop in your list of blogs. I was scrolling through the blogs that I read and a saw a picture of myself! I forgot that I had submitted a guest post for Ordinary Utopia.
Well, I did! I have my first guest post over at Ordinary Utopia. It's definitely weird to see my writing up over there, weird but a good. I really appreciate the opportunity to write a piece for those ladies, it was fun. Thank you!

So go check it out here! :)

Friday, May 4, 2012

An Ode to Jared

Today is a big day

it might be scary, it might

be both. You're quirky and

have really taken to musicals;

you're one of a kind.

You're my brother and

I've known you all my life.

Somehow, even though

I'm older, you tend to be

one step ahead of me.

I'm glad we're close in age.

We've done so many

things together.

Remember building forts

after a hurricane one year?

Or how about the trip to

Seaworld where I lost my

marbles and when you

rode Kraken apparently

againt your will? I hope

you were too scarred.

You've always been

an overachiever. For

pete's sake, you made a

pineapple upside down cake

by age seven. It has been neat to see

how you have taken to

photography and

how well you've gotten!

Here's to a great year! I'm

glad, blessed, and thankful to

be your sister.

Jared, Jared, awesome Jared

from your head down to your feet

there is nothing half so sweet as

Jared, Jared, awesome Jared.

Wednesday, May 2, 2012


Psalm 106:44
Nevertheless, he looked upon their distress, when he heard their cry.

In spite of perpetual and never ending sinning, God, for his benefit, his glory heard the cry of his people. How awesome is that? The fact that God didn't just destroy the rebellious Israelites the first time is a big deal. I mean come on, this is God were talking about. God who would have the right to do that. God who created the universe, ::Spoke:: life into motion, and cared for the creatures that are the representations of his likeness.

you told me to call
said you'd be there
and though I haven't seen you,
are you still there?
//barlow girl//

What about the times when I can't perceive God's nearness? What happened to"he heard their cry?" Sensing the nearness of God and trusting the promises about the nearness of God are two separate topics. Experiencing God's presence is such a joy and a gift. It is something to be cherished. However, it is easy for me to become immune to his presence, as if saying, " I'm here God, show me the presence I expect to receive from you." Sounds a little harsh? Well, that can be what my heart attitude it towards Him when I don't value time with him. As people, we are equipped with emotions, so it is not uncharacteristic for us to desire that which makes us feel good. But -- humans are finicky and God is steadfast. If I were to stop befriending someone just because I wasn't "feeling" it anymore shouldn't constitute whether or not I should still love that person. Relationships are two hands clapping, it involves two people participating together. The same thing applies with God. I can't demand anything from God, I have no right to. It is His gift to allow us to enter into His presence because of Jesus that means I should not take advantage of that. It also means I have a responsibility in my relationship with Christ. I can't only come to church expecting to get something without giving something of myself. I should come with a heart of thankfulness for all God has done and also not be afraid to come to Him with my troubles. Usually when I cannot perceive God's nearness in my life its usually because I have a hindrance blocking my view. (distractions, sin) I have to remind myself, in those times, that God is all-powerful, all-knowing, and always with me.