Tuesday, December 4, 2012

texas

I had the chance to go back to Texas again to visit my Aunt. I was super thrilled because I just love Texas and...I flew alone! It was an adventure :) I was slightly nervous sitting in my gate early in the morning. Though, the flight was uneventful.

I was kind of bummed.

I looked forward to those "airplane" conversations. I've heard stories about interesting people that may sit next to you and unfortunately, three out of four flights included no conversation.what.so.ever. Except on the flight out to Texas, (I had a connecting flight) there was a man and his cat. I don't know why, but I thought it was extremely strange to travel with a cat. like. aren't cats the easiest animals to take care of? plus, they come with 9 lives. what is there to lose. i digress. I'm allergic to cats. I saw this guy holding his cat before boarding, thinking, "I hope I don't sit next to him!" just my luck. Thankfully, the cat was stowed under a seat and was far enough away that I didn't react to it being near me.

On my way home, my bag had to be "re-scanned" at another angle at the security check point. basically, i had a mini heart attack, but I kept it together. "Oh, sure!" *whew* relief covered me when i saw my belongings come through. even though I had nothing to hide, I was just curious what looked suspicious, perhaps? nonetheless, I returned home happy and successful.

i love to fly.

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

whispers |the sidewalk pt 2|

do you hear the whispers in the wind? are you even aware that i'm beckoning?

 i'm calling you.

did you know that i'm pursuing you? i have called you by name. i know all the ins and outs about you and where your life will lead you. you claim to want to know what's coming next in life, but do you really care? because by knowing me, you will know the details of your life. are you coming to me with eager expectation, anticipation, or hope about the future? do you want to know me, or do you just want to be in control


stop.

listen.

i'm speaking.

slow down, breathe in, breathe deep. be still. 

pause and hear the whispers in the wind.




Saturday, October 27, 2012

the sidewalk pt. 1

the firm ground beneath her was becoming no more with every step she took. the pavement ended. she stopped. with her feet side by side and lips pursed, she was confused. the clear path had ceased to exist. little wrinkles formed by her eyes as she squinted long and hard. she paused and then searched longingly across the horizon for any sign of direction. she looked down at her feet. the idea of leaving the familiar, planned, and concreteness of her life frightened her. thoughts ran laps around her brain.  the soft, green earth that was just inches from her toes beckoned fearless abandon, yet, she was reluctant. 

he beckoned, "come, follow me."

 she glided across the once daunting, unknown path with her eyes fixated upon Him. not where she had been nor where she was going.

what was there to lose?



luke 5:1-11

Sunday, October 21, 2012

a day to be remembered

sheesh. I haven't blogged, in what feels like, forever! I have been staying super busy these days. I recently moved to the pharmacy at work. I'm part-time at my community college, plus I'm a youth leader, and I'm good at filling up my calender with other commitments. Now that I have some time to write, I just have to share about my amazing weekend with my friend, Alyse!

We are working on a cultural project for our Spanish class, so we went to several places to document Hispanic culture. However, our favorite, and possibly most talked about stop was the restaurant we went to. It was utterly fantastic. We were to happy with the massive bowl of queso. :) We walked in thinking we could eat an elephant because we had done so much walking, though, we both ended up boxing up our meals to go.

It was just an a great, spontaneous day filled with popsicles, the beach, and many happy memories.

it was just so lovely i wish it could be relived. ah, next time :)

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Let it be known | A music announcement

Hear ye, hear ye, one and all!

I'm just so excitedly happy about the music I've been listening to I could bust!!!  It's quite ridiculous.

Take a moment to prepare yourself.

 Have you heard of Gungor, Tenth Avenue North, or Rend Collective Experiment? Well, newsflash. Get with the program! These bands are some of my favorite. I've been listening to Tenth Ave the longest, followed by Gungor. I discovered Rend Collective Experiment through Tenth Ave because these two bands are touring together. "Eh, whatever, no big deal," you must be thinking. Ahem. Rend collective is a band with five core individuals, but consider themselves a collective because lots of people contribute to their music. How sweet is that? Wait, I'm just getting started. They are from northern Ireland!!! GAH! Can I just say that the reason I highly recommend these bands is solely because of their authenticity. (score, I spelled that without spell check : ) ) Each of these bands write songs based on scripture paired with fantastic melodies.The lyrics are raw and are the out-workings of real people going through the ups and downs of real life because after all, they are people too. Lately, I've been playing and replaying these albums on my ipod. I can't get enough!

Though, what makes me even more excited about music is getting to see it live. <-- This sentence can be translated to: HELLO CONCERTS! :) I'm going to see Gungor this week and Rend Collective Experiment with Tenth Avenue North next month. And as if that were the icing on the cake, it isn't. My college (wee little college that is it) is offering two travel abroad opportunities, one to Ireland ( hence the excitement) and one two Italy. Just the idea (it is still in the idea stage) of going to the country were this phenomenal band is from makes me want to jump up and down with delight, which, by the way, has happened.

So, what is the moral of this blogpost? Well, obviously. If you do not have in your possession:


  • Beautiful Things and Ghosts Upon the Earth by Gungor
  • Over and Underneath, The Light Meets the Dark, and The Struggle by Tenth Avenue North
  • Organic Family Hymnal and Homemade Worship by Handmade People by Rend Collective Experiment
Go and first find money. Be it your next pay check, allowance, birthday money, or better yet, the spare change that you know is hidden all over your house, it adds up.  I encourage you to spend it investing joy into your ears. Trust me on this one, it's worth it.

Thursday, September 20, 2012

clarification: a note to myself

my blog, is, well, mine.

 i know it goes without saying that, but i need to remind myself of that. i'm Lacey and i write about what matters to me. i don't write about everything that goes on in my life. but i do like to write about life. sometimes, i get consumed with the other blogs that i read. rather than reading and sharing in their lives, occasionally i'll compare myself, my life, and my blog to anyone of the fabulous bloggers that i follow. i've been so blessed, encouraged, and i've laughed at many a wonderful post by some awesome ladies, but, i easily get consumed with how life appears instead of how it is. thinking is good. i do a lot of thinking, and i like to think. however, when i'm traveling circles in my own train of thought, i dwell. i park myself in the driveway of either condemnation or pity. i'm not a consistent blogger. i don't have a stellar camera to document every moment of my life. am i too spiritual? is it even possible to be "too" spiritual? there are just some of the thoughts that i've been replaying in my head. i get bogged down by my own idea of what a successful blogger ought to be. it really is quite silly, but it's the truth. one night i was working on a craft and i couldn't find the camera to document the occasion. i was bummed because i thought, "i need to post something besides words. maybe people think all i do is sit in a corner and think about deep spiritual matters." pathetic. just plain pathetic. i need to stop focusing on what are people are doing. i should take my own advice and accept who i am. i'll live my life, make my memories, and be me.

though i have been a little down on myself (obviously, unnecessarily), i have been so happy! first of all, i am SO excited to be where God wants me. knowing that i am where he wants me is a fantastic feeling. while i'd like to be in Costa Rica, i know i'm not supposed to be there now. secondly, school has been pretty rad so far. God is just amazing. He is so tender and kind to little ole me. i met Alyse on my first day of school. she is one of the sweetest girls i know. she's sincere, raw, and absolutely hilarious. it's awesome to have a like-minded sister in Christ. we've been able to do homework together, EAT (hahah we always end up talking about food) and of course, pass notes in class. :) next, on the list of happiness, is my church. i'm blown away by God's plan. His plan is the best plan (isaiah 55:9), and i'm just stunned every time i realize i get to fellowship with the people at my church and that i'm a youth leader this year. along with the excitement of being at the church i'm currently at, God has been smacking my in the face with the word humility. in practically every situation i face, i need to exercise humility. what's funny about life is that lessons are never ever fully learned. if i learned to be humble i'd check it off my list and move on to another characteristic. PAH. life isn't perfect, therefore, it's an everyday thing. 

i know why i get caught up in other people's "perfect lives." in the first place, the view that life is perfect and always wonderful is distorted. i deceive myself, but also, P-R-I-D-E. i never want to admit that i'm full of pride, though, i definitely am. i wasn't satisfied with my blog and my thoughts because i hadn't been thanking God for all his many blessings. i have to step back. zoom out. oh, so easily, my heart and mind attach to the microscopic, worthless details of life, but again, that's why Jesus has to continually smack me in the face, wake me up to the reality of his constant, steadfast goodness. just the other day i read psalm 136, his love endures forever. God's love is always, will always, and has always been sure, steady, and constant. He transcends all earthly things. 

i never really understood what its like when pastor's say that they are preaching to themselves as much as they are to the congregation, not until tonight that is. i just needed to write a note to myself.

Thursday, August 30, 2012

with groanings too deep for words



 But if we hope for what we do not see, we wait for it with patience.

 Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words. -- Romans 8:25-26


these verses have been on my mind a lot lately. i'm growing up and i'm learning anew how vital it is to trust God with all my life. it is easier to try to take on situations in my life, thinking i know what the best outcome will be. and i don't, and never, ever, ever will be in control of my circumstances. it's funny to me, to be in this place where God has me. i remember looking up to older girls in my church with awe, "their lives are so wonderful! they have it all together, life is great," only to find out that i'm in the same place without a clue in the world. writing helps me think out loud, so bear with me, but i think the more and more i age (i know, i sound like i'm 80 looking back on my childhood) the more i began to get a glimpse, an inkling, a small grasp, of the depth of God and the frailty of man. as i grow up and the parental grip on my life is lessening, the greater responsibility i have to wholly entrust my being, my circumstances, and--well-- all of me to Christ. i can't depend of my parents for everything. it is so comforting to know that the Holy Spirit dwells in me and that is one of the ways i can hear from God. i don't always know how to put into words what i'm pondering or feeling, but the Spirit intercedes. God knows me better than anyone and He promises to not despise a broken and contrite heart.(psalm 51:17)

at the beginning of the year, i made a poster with two words that i thought the Lord would use in my life, two words that i know i needed to work on. these days it is so easy to get bogged down, saddened, and sucked into the pressures of this life. ||BUT|| God. but, God? BUT God, yes God, He is faithful. He was faithful to the israelites and he is faithful to me, today.  specifically in fulfilling his promises to me. the two words i decided upon were perseverance and trust. these two words are and have been so relevant to my life. january one, i didn't know that i'd dislocate my knee cap. i also did not know what God would do in my life several months down the road. what he is doing in my life, several months down the road, is giving me the opportunity to intern with the ministry i partnered along side with this past summer in costa rica. i'm still praying and trusting God to lead me, but i'm trusting in faith, that He will shut the door when necessary. my first step of faith was signing up for a spanish class at my college, which has been going great. i'm just amazed by the Lord because really does work in miraculous ways.

Thursday, August 16, 2012

I'm gushing!

I am so thankful for all the things that God has been doing in my life.

I'm so joyful! 

I could explode at any second with loud laughter.

I love Jesus.

I'm learning so much from the bible.

I'm extremely blessed.

Smiling comes naturally to me anyway, but I cannot stop smiling.

I want the whole earth to experience what I'm experiencing.

I don't know about my future and I'm fine with that because I'm resting in God's hands.

I'm thankful for my job.

I love the believers that I fellowship with.

School is starting!!!!

and, I'm a nerd because I love to learn.

school supplies make me giddy with organizing excitement.

My love for Christ, for other people, and for life is overflowing.

i'm gushing. :)






Wednesday, August 15, 2012

In the midst of it all, God is faithful.



Hebrews 11:1 "Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen."

This picture is my outlook on life is right about now. I feel the water rushing past me, and I know the Lord is working in my life. Yet, I also hear the distant, falling water, crashing to the earth beneath, reminding me I don't know what is in store for my life.  It is an unknown destination that God has already prepared. I'm aware of God's redirecting my path because his ways are higher than mine. I'm on the edge. I'm drifting towards the steep drop of unfamiliarity and I couldn't be more satisfied where God has me. I don't know all that the Lord will allow me to do in the coming years, but I'm overwhelmed by his peace. Without any cliché motive in my heart, I happily and firmly declare, "Here I am. Send me!"


Wednesday, August 8, 2012

You don't know you're beautiful

these are my thoughts regarding the culture that girls currently live in. I am not writing directly to any one person. it is my intent to plead with girls everywhere to realize their worth. I do not intend to offend anyone.
~ xxxxx ~
Dear Friends, 



You don't know you're beautiful. 

And the reason I know that is because of the way you feel it necessary to flaunt yourself on social media. You are beautiful, can't you see that? I know that you want attention, but flashing your skin won't do the trick. What you seek now is immediate satisfaction, which will begin go away just as soon as it began. It makes my heart ache to see you saddened by the fact that you don't have as many "likes" or  comments on your photos. Please know that the foundation on your face is worthless when you can have Christ as your foundation. He see's you as his daughter. You are precious in his sight, and if no one seems to think you are pretty, Jesus see's you as stunning because of His work on the cross. He died to save YOU. How could he not love someone he died to save?

The culture we live in today says to wear clothes that barely hide you inside of the material, but you can be clothed in righteousness. Men are attracted to what excites them. Let God draw the right man to your beautiful heart for Christ and not to the opportunity of instant physical pleasure. Save yourself before you get into a mess you can't crawl out of. When you protect your brother's eyes,(guy friends, boyfriends, literal family and anyone in between) you can build friendships. Seek out friends before a relationship and save yourself some drama; it'll be worth it for your sake. You are young; enjoy the time that God has given you. Mistakes that are made now can become habits for later. Avoid traps and seek fun without stupidity. 

Beauty is vain, and charm is deceitful, but a Woman who fears the Lord is to be praised. Don't you see? All that the world values is meaningless to God. He loves, treasures, and delights in you only because when He see's you, He see's no mess, He see's Jesus' work on the cross. What you think matters now, does not. Make-up to hide your "flaws", clothes for unnecessary attention, sassy attitudes, and curse words do not, I repeat, do not make you any better to God. Now, I've listed make-up and clothes, though, these things are not bad. However, when you obsess over them for the wrong attention you can open doors to pathways you'd never thought you'd enter. I know you'll think I'm crazy, but your parents love you. They want to protect you. I know, believe me I know, you think they don't understand. But they do. They enforce rules and seem harsh because it's a crazy world out there. They love you and want what is best for you, even though it doesn't always "feel" good.

Please, do what you can now to protect yourself.

Sincerely,
A fellow girl, sister, and friend,

Lacey

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

Breaking the barriers one word at a time: Costa Rica 7/20

We are home in the states, but I wasn't able to finish blogging about the whole trip there. I'm planning on finishing it before the week is out. :)


xxxxx

Despite the assumed simplicity of basic communication, the team in Costa Rica has discovered the power of speaking through love and not words. The most basic sentence becomes the starting point for friendships that transcend wealth and cultural differences. While teaching English doesn't clearly scream, "We're Jesus freaks!" we were able to reach out to those in the community by helping them improve what they do know. We went over work books practicing the numbers, colors, and shapes.  We ended the English practice by singing "Head shoulders, knees and toes."

Next we went to help out at the feeding center at the Celebration church, Alajuelita campus, which is right near 6:8. It was like a small church service before the meal. There was a sermon and a song before those gathered ate. This service project went fairly quickly because these men ate really fast. It probably was there only meal of the day. With that fact in mind, it was extremely humbling to see how thankful and smiley they all were. The whole group was touched when Spencer sat down to eat among these men. It doesn't take much to do something that "simple" or "basic", however, I know that it spoke volumes to those men. Spencer is the  president of 6:8 ministries but that didn't matter or have any significance while he communed with the Ticos.

After lunch we went to Alajuelinda (i think that's the spelling.) spend time at a local playground. 6:8 hasn't made many contacts in this area, though, we were able to share the love of Christ by playing, providing entertainment, and stimulating the kids day. Who knows what they were doing before? Were they bored? The joy, smiles, and hugs for even those brief moments, definitely showed them that Gringos (white people) aren't any better than they are. We're all people and we all need love.  When we came back from playing we dispersed into our VBS groups to finalize our plans for the following day.

Friday, July 20, 2012

Costa Rica: Day Three--7/19

We were picked up by this bus from the airport.


We love our kitchen ladies! They feed us SO well. :)


Coloring with some kiddos(7/18)

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Thursday involved making care packages of food to take to families in one of the poorest areas. The people in surrounding areas view these homes as eye sores. We were able to take 12 bags of food to 12 different homes. We asked the families if they had any prayer requests, prayed for them, and gave them the food. In one of the homes there was a grandmother taking care of her grandchildren while her daughter went to work. There were eight people living in a very small, narrow, home. Thanya, Shane, Rachel, Daniel, and I were in the home praying and it was so sweet to see how affected Thanya was as she tried to hold back her tears. We all were moved by the welcoming attitude despite how little each of these families had. It was also really cool to be able to be prayed for by one of the recipients. Even though we were praying in English and she was praying in Spanish it was so touching to be prayed over. We quickly gathered some kids and began blowing bubbles, playing soccer, and coloring with chalk and crayons.

Our next outing involved traveling to Juan Pablo, a place very near and dear to those who went to Costa Rica last year. In Juan Pablo, the 2011 team built two houses and we got to go back and see how the families have been since last year. Tears were shed and hugs exchanged pretty quickly as we made our appearance. For me, as a first timer, it was super sweet to see the bond and connection that my team members made the previous year. It was an absolutely beautiful afternoon. A group of our team and several locals got a soccer game started in four foot high grass. I kid you not, it was literally that high. I hope someone happened to get video footage of the running because it was highly amusing. Daniel reached out to Jeremy, who had some special needs, it was such a tender moment as I watched them interact. He, the towering American, and Jeremy, a little Tico with the largest smile I've seen in a while :) Thanya also got attached to Jeremy and she sat cuddling with him against one of the homes. Isabella was chasing and playing with two siblings, a brother and sister, and by the end of the afternoon the little girl slowly released the grip of her crayons and fell fast asleep in her arms. During the midst of the game, Carson and Lexi collided and Lexi was in a lot of pain. Which resulted in a trip to the hospital that did not definitively say what was wrong with Lexi, but she did not break anything, Praise the Lord!

Group chapel was lead by a 6:8 staffer who shared from Isaiah 58. The whole chapter talks about how the people of Israel think they are dedicated to the Lord and giving him the proper sacrifices etc. However, the fast that the Lord chooses is one that releases us from our stuff. As Americans, we are so "fulfilled" by our things that we cling to them. How about fasting and going to take your meal to the homeless? Or not donating your crappy clothing items and shoes to the homeless but giving your very best? More often than not, our things own us rather than us owning our things. And when we become so selfless and unconcerned with material items that won't last, we will give freely.

Our personal group time (we do group chapel with Celebration church) was really great. We had affirmations, which is when everyone draws a name at the beginning of the day and watches how God uses them during the day. It is one, encouraging to hear about things that other people notice that we don't think twice about, two, it is neat to see how God shows himself through us. After we had people affirmations we went around and affirmed God. How he spoke to us, showed himself to us, convicted, or made each of us aware about his characteristics.




Shane with Jose Antonio.


The little girl that eventually fell asleep in Isabella's arms.

Trooper Lexi! She stayed so positive through all of this :)


Thursday, July 19, 2012

Costa Rica: Day Two- 7/18

Yesterday road a bus to a local grocery store, Pali, to buy some groceries for a family we were going to visit. We went to visit Jose Antonio's family. Jose Antonio is a boy that Cross Creek has been supporting for some time now. He is a special needs boy who, recently, had the opportunity to to be accepted into a program to help reign in, his more of less, spastic behavior. Through horse therapy, Jose has been able to begin learning how to do tasks like wiping off the table. These tasks, while simple, show how much improvement has occurred. It was neat to be able to hear about how far this little boy has come! We were able to bless them with food and pray over them. I (Lacey) offered to start the praying and during the prayer, all of the sudden, I became overcome with emotion. I wasn't expecting to cry, and I wasn't just crying I was weeping, tears continued to flow even after I had stopped praying. I really don't know what I was praying, I truly believe God was praying through me. It was so powerful to have our group pray for these people.

After we left Jose Antonio's house, we walked to a little alley to play with kids in the area. You know the saying, "Build a walmart and they will come?" (referring to rednecks, from Tim Hawkins) Well here we say, "Bring a soccer ball, and they will come!" There were two soccer games going, some coloring in coloring books, jumping rope, throwing the Frisbee, and playing with chalk. It was great to interact with and experience the culture through laughter with the kids. A lot of memories were made and even more pictures taken. :)

Next we came back to the team house to eat lunch and when we were done we left to go back to another Pali that was closer to 6:8. This time we were buying food for care packages that we are going to distribute today. (7/19) From the store, we walked to meet these two twins who have been addicted to drugs and on the streets for 15 years. Their home was a concrete house with concrete slabs to place the mattress on because they had sold their other bed to buy more drugs. They didn't have a door either because they also sold that. The community of Alajuelita frowns upon them because they have always been begging for money. Everyone also views these men as the lowest of the low. We gathered around these men and prayed for them. Afterwards, as we were standing there, buses would drive by and the people would stare at us because they knew how "terrible" these twins are. Yet, Christ tells us that when we serve the least of these we serve him.

All of our days are very full and a lot of us have been saying how it feels like we've been here for so long. We really have just been blessed to see how much God has worked in how little time we actually have been here.

We ended our night yesterday with a trip to San Jose, the capital. We took a bus in and then did a bit of walking to get to the market. Sadly, Kirstin began to feel pretty dizzy and slightly nauseous. Shane thinks that she may have vertigo only because Sara does as well. (maybe hereditary?) We walked to eat some pizza and I think she was starting to feel better then. After we ate, Spencer, was greeted by a friend of his. Spencer told his friend that if he wore the boots that Spencer gave him previously, Spencer would buy him groceries. We stopped so Spencer could get some groceries and then we got to pray over Spencer's friend. We then walked near, but not in front of the Hotel Del Ray. This place used to be a hotel but has now turned into one of the biggest brothels in this area. There are casinos, strippers, and prostitutes that fill this place of darkness and evil. It was getting later and if it had been earlier, we would have seen families dropping off their mom's and their daughters. Again, we stopped to pray. It was heartbreaking to know that this is how a lot of people made money.

When we made it back from our bus ride, we all got to hang out, some on the balcony, some downstairs. We talked and talked. There was an intense game of Liar's dice (from Pirates of the Caribbean) with a bunch of the guys. I know what your thinking, what a game for a mission trip, eh? ;) While we are here, we are on Costa Rica time, which means, things happen when they will. So, because we have to be flexible and we've been staying busy, we haven't had a chance to upload some pictures but I will try to have those for the next post.

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Costa Rica Update

Hello from Alajuelita, Costa Rica!

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Checking into the airport and waiting to board our flight was very smoothly executed. We had no problems staying together! Shouts of joy, squeals, or, "WE'RE GOING TO COSTA RICAAAAAA!!!!" would randomly explode with the anticipation mounting.

Our only issue was Kirstin's motion-sickness. She felt queasy as we started moving in the plane, even though we hadn't lifted off the ground. Our brief 2 hour and 45 minute flight was the longest and most uncomfortable flight for Kirstin. She did end up throwing up several times, but when we got to the team house she was slowly beginning to feel better and she kept her food down. Praise the Lord!

After quickly unloading and rearranging our luggage, we went on a prayer walk in the area just outside of 6:8 ministries. It was very powerful for all of us as we began to really have our eyes opened to the reality of the lifestyle here. One of the most important things that Bryan (6:8 staff) told us in orientation was to be open to the "living-in-the-moment" Holy Spirit leading. We actually were able to have an impromptu prayer circle around a man, who goes by the name of shaggy. We also stopped and prayed over what used to be a thriving coffee field. Now, the overgrown coffee plants hide dark activities such as drug dealing and using. The ground is covered in trash and apparently was in better conditions than it has been before. 6:8 would love to see how God would take over this land, how he would use this land and take dominion for His kingdom and glory. It was very moving to be apart of praying over this property.

Next we had chapel, lead by Bryan (SO great!) and a brief small group. It was a wonderful first day and all of use are very much enjoying our time here. Thank you for your prayers, we appreciate them so much!

Look for pictures next time :)

Saturday, July 14, 2012

Not why, but what

During the week of Passion 2012, I came to God with expectations. Note: Don't do that. (haha) Don't try to comprehend God. One, it won't work, and two, "trying" to expect what God will do will just steal the joy that comes from your vulnerability and brokenness towards your maker. He works in you when you are at your lowest low because you realize that is then, when you are stripped of everything else distracting, that you need him.

After a wonderful time learning more about God, I came home feeling really bummed out about my knee.  It was hard for me to be dependent on people. I wanted to get up and go help, yet I physically wasn't able to complete all my regular responsibilities.  I was quickly slipping into a hole of discouragement.  Through that experience, though, I felt convicted about how was spending my time. Most of my time was being spent with people outside of my family. I began to realize how little time I actually had left living at home, in comparison with the rest of my life. There were times of tears when I couldn't push myself to reach a physical therapy goal, but all the while, God kept reminding me not to ask Him, "Why me? Why would you make me go through something like this?"  but rather, "What, God, do you want to teach me?" The latter question turned my focus from myself and my pride and refocused my attitude towards Him.

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

You Stay The Same

Since the last time I posted, I have been occupied with working, training for the pharmacy, and preparing for Costa Rica. I'm still fundraising, but my youth leader assured me that he would make sure that I was coming. :) I've been tested and stretched in my faith regarding the mission trip because of my type A oldest sister side. I like to know that my ducks are in a row. I'm a planner. While I'm mostly a relaxed, go with the flow person, I really felt the need to take this into my hands and fix my "problem." On top of my worry about the trip, I was dealing with insomnia. My mind was SO busy that I had thoughts constantly running through my brain.I was more focused on the coming day than calming down, reading the bible to direct my thoughts, and trusting God. Strangely, I came across this verse while I was up at 3am one day:
 At midnight I rise to praise you,
because of your righteous rules.Psalm 119:62.

I was so thankful for a sweet time of worship with my friends from Daytona over the weekend; it was helpful to regain the perspective that I was numbing myself away from. As soon as I sit down and reflect, I have thoughts of thankfulness trickle into my mind. I'm so blessed to have a fantastic church. I'm thankful for awesome parents and faithful grandparents. I'm undeserving of the job that I have. Yet, without God's word guiding and clarifying my thinking I quickly drift away from those thoughts I just mentioned. Lately, I have been reading, "Weird: because normal isn't working." The book is by Craig Groeschel, and it has been so convicting and encouraging to me. The whole theme of the book goes along with a post I wrote prior to reading the book. It's super neat for me to read an entire book based on thoughts that I had previously! :)

{i've been humming this song all day}

Friday, June 22, 2012

Hamilton

Have you ever heard of or seen the stories written using a permanent mark and a book or newspaper? I'm not exactly sure if there are any rules in creating one of those stories, but I snipped out an article out of the newspaper and darkened out all the lines I didn't need for the story.


see how there are black areas? that's the marked out area, words I didn't use. and the white spaces are the words that I liked and used in the story :)


Anyway, this is what I came up with

~xxxxx~

Hamilton

you met her in a hometown hospital.

the treatment is a roller coaster.

"i know she is the best."

hamilton agreed.

he said it was more than luck.

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

So, here's the deal

Yesterday was pretty rough and long. 

I sometimes get nauseated and so I always have medicine on hand just in case I begin to feel a little sick. Well, I ran out of medicine. I was very queasy all yesterday morning until, at last, I threw up. I began to do so about every 15 minutes starting at 10am with no breakfast on my tummy. Mom and I eventually (about an hour later) went to a Crucial care center to nip this in the bud! After about an hour of waiting my vitals were taken and I was dozing in and out between the nurses checking in. At long last the doctor came in and we discussed the options, shot with anti-nausea or an IV with anti-nausea. I started with the shot and that didn't do squat for me. I imagined it wouldn't do anything only because by now I have become a professional vomiter, and I've had quite the experience with all the routes I could possibly take. This is about the fifth time I've dealt with a situation like this.


I let the medicine try to take affect and yet I was still keeping nothing in my stomach. I got the IV shortly after realizing that the shot didn't work. The nurse put the same medicine in the IV, though. The medicine she used was phenergan (fen-er-gen) which is supposed to be the stronger of the two anti-nausea medicine. I usually take Zofran. I continued to throw up even with the phenergan so after a tech came in to try to draw blood, she gave me a dissolve-able zofran tablet. Between the shot, IV, and tablet there was a lapse of time, I supposed a long one, where I feel completely asleep. The phenergan can do that to ya. It worked for me! My mom was even on the phone and I didn't hear her. :) 


I woke up and they x-rayed my stomach just to be safe. It was at this point when I began to feel stronger and more human. Before I felt very weak and very, very, tired. I felt perky and I even ate some cheese-its and drank some gatorade. I got my discharge papers and mom and I left. Mom walked into a health food store behind the clinic to get some things and she bought some food for me and herself. The wrap she got, honestly, didn't taste very good but I ate it anyway. Later on down the road on the way home, we stopped to get some gas. It was there that I threw up my sandwich. I told mom it tasted like pickles and it was nasty! We still continued home and since then I slept incredibly well, and I've have been keeping all my food down and feeling much, much better!

Friday, June 15, 2012

Friday Photos

I like how the barista wrote my name :)

I organized my grandparents mail and left notes in cursive.

My incredibly delicious meal at work that my mom invented! It was fried chicken in rice flour and coconut oil. A vegetable quinoa pilaf and rosemary gravy. YUM!

Today is free tropical smoothie day! All you have to do is wear flip flops :)
Cheers!


Thursday, June 14, 2012

Serving the Poor

As I've mentioned before, I have been reading the book, Crazy Love with some friends of mine. It has been a great time of sharing and learning. While the whole book is fantastic, the chapter we read last was by far, the most convicting chapter for me. The idea of serving people and blessing them without getting anything back was the theme. It is wonderful to give people you know and love things but they have the resources to return the gift. What about giving without getting back squat. zero, zulch, nada, because those who don't have the same money or gifts as you can't pay you back. Yet, I've been thinking that the beauty of this mindset is that is what Christ did for me! I was scumb (still kind of dirty ; ) ) the lowest of the low, in the sinner crowd, though, he stooped to the level of a common man to rescue me.  There is nothing that I could bring God, or give to Jesus to come near repaying him for what he did.

I've just been doing a lot of thinking as to how I could fulfill this role of giving without expecting anything back. I thought of some ideas but still I'd kind of like to do something totally random and helpful.


  • Feeding the homeless
  • Babysitting for church members for free
While those two thins are awesome, I'm still trying to come up with ideas. The verses that have been constantly on my mind are from  Luke 8 where prostitute washes Jesus' feet. We really can't give anything to repay God but he does call us to serve because when we do, we serve Him.

 What has God been teaching you lately? Any encouraging verses to share?

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Theology Thoughts//Part one

Today I'd like to go ahead and share some things that have recently been clouding my vision and intruding into my inner most thoughts: constantly.

"We're all theologians. The question is whether what we know about God is true."~ Josh Harris


During a skype conversation, my friend and I begin discussing free will. Free will is that (what i understand it to be) we choose God versus other religions.

 Correct me if I'm wrong. Questions like: What is it? What scriptures backs either side. Which lead to what do I believe based on scripture, what I know about God? etc.

So, at this point, I'm still researching and discussing with older, wiser people. But what are your convictions about the matter?  When I come to a conclusion that is my conviction, I'll post it, but for now, please, I'd like to know what you think! :)

Monday, June 11, 2012

Hello, consistency + Lovely Ladies

To begin my journey of consistent blogging, I'd like to begin by talking about spectacular women. I happened to glance at a magazine in front of my register (I work at a grocery store), and I saw several of them plastered with pictures of Drew Barrymore. So, apparently, she got married. She looks lovely, I mean just look at her dress.


I guess the reason I was so excited about her wedding was because of her beauty that shone through. Not because I care very much for the celebrity crowd but because Drew was dressed so elegantly. Now, I will admit, she isn't decked from head to toe in diamonds but you can see her happiness oozing out of her. Seeing these pictures reminded me that there is hope for humanity, well, maybe some hope for classy ladies, modesty, and pure elegance.

A friend once told me that the term Lady, "means to be dignified." 

Clearly, not everyone is a lady. But we all do have a chance to become one. Now, this doesn't mean you have to have lots of money, know a ton of rich people, or associate yourself with things you are not. What you can do, is:
  • Dress in a way that the clothes you wear, flatter you. No one else but you has your body. So dress the way your made, not miss double 0.Stacy and Clinton from "What Not To Wear" say something along the lines of wearing clothes that fit you make you look better than wearing clothes that are for someone else.
  • Think before you speak and choose your words carefully. Not only does it make you look smarter and wiser, but the people you surround yourself with will value what you have to say.
  • There is only one you. The more you understand that the more you will be able to be comfortable with you.
Another lady that comes to mind is Kate (previously) Middleton. She is the epitome of classy elegance. She maintains her own style, which, now, with all this publicity is highly coveted after. Kate also dresses in a humble manner, if that makes sense? She doesn't dress to flaunt or uncover any unnecessary skin. I know she is a different story, given she is now royalty, but still, she is a great example.




Friday, June 8, 2012

new and fresh!

So, what do you think of the new blog design? Isn't it great!? I'm really really happy with it! A big thank you to Gracie over at lollipops and cupcakes (check her blog out, its neat :) ) I think it is a nice fit and the colors are very pretty. I now consider it my own space. A one of a kind design that fits me: unique.

Remember the brainstorming technique okay putting thoughts into boxes to help your idea flow? Well, I'm happy to announce that I'll be doing a lot of brainstorming this coming weekend and I hope to have a whole slough of idea prepared for at least the next two weeks! I've never done planning ahead, at least this far, with blogging before, but I'm excited to be consistent with the blog.

Here's to consistency! :)

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

a brain full of thoughts

 I've temporarily not blogged. I haven't disregarded blogging, in fact, I have SO many thoughts bouncing around in my head.I've been trying to sit down and write it all out because if I don't, I might explode. I still have yet to actually right down all I'm thinking about, but, I read this excerpt from Jesus Calling that really is a great summary of what I've been thinking about and feeling. I know it sounds kind of weird to say feeling, but it has been a feeling. My physical heart feels full against my chest. Some days the feeling is deep with ache and other days it is a distinct happy//full//ache if that makes sense?

Remember that you live in a fallen world: an abnormal world tainted by sin. Much frustration and failure result from your seeking perfection in this life. There is nothing perfect in this world except me {Jesus}. That is why closeness to Me satisfies deep yearnings and fills you with joy. I have planted longing for perfection in every human heart. This is a good desire, which I alone can fulfill. But most people seek this fulfillment in other people and earthly pleasures or achievements Thus they create idols, before which they bow down. I will have no other gods before Me! Make Me the deepest desire of your heart. Let me fulfill your yearning for perfection. |Jesus Calling, Sarah Young|


{{exodus 20:3, psalm 37:4}}

Friday, May 25, 2012

An Update: Graduation!

{my dad's parents}

{my parents}
So, I graduated from highschool!! : ) I can't believe I did it. Well, that my parents and I did it. I'm thrilled to say the least. I'm apart of a homeschooling group that throws a graduation and it was very nice and quite formal. I, however, decided that I'd mix it up a bit. As I was walking across the stage I received my diploma case from the commencement speaker, took my solo picture, and as I was walking off I yelled, " FREEDOM!" Yeah, I know, subtle, oh so subtle. My parents were kind of shocked.  Oh well! Got to make memories, yeah? : ) Later that night a bunch of friends showed up to my open house. I'm blessed to know awesome people of all ages who came out to congratulate me. 

My mom put together one heck of a table of food. It was so delicious! She said she feels like she now knows how to have an open house. haha. She's open to hosting another sometime :)

Yesterday, my family and my mom's parents (who are down for about another week) went to dinner and the beach. Oh, it was so beautiful! The sky was several radiant shades of blue and so was the water. Believe it or not, we stumbled into a soon to be wedding--on a thursday! ha! It was kind of neat. I mean what's better than no shoes at a wedding? Nothing.  :) 

We went to a local resturant, Osteens. It was very yummy. It's a tradition that my grandpa, my mom's dad, we call pappy, holds. "And I don't want to stop now!"

After a stroll on the beach we went to get Rita's ice. Which basically is the best place to get italian ice. YUM to the max. I got a passion fruit gelati. Gelati is the bestest creamiest well, cream that tops the ice. 

Now you are all caught up. : ) Besides working a ton I've been trying to soak up this non school filled season.




Monday, May 14, 2012

Oh, to join in your song

The words from Christy Nockles' song "Sing Along"  have been resounding in my ears.

Great God, wrap your arms around this world tonight
 around the world tonight.
and when you hear our cries sing through the night
 so we can join in your song and sing along

The words "join in your song" particularly struck me as I was driving home. Typically when I listen to this song I think about the enormity of God's grasp for the world. I think of huge hands cradling the globe. I think about the "wrap your arms around this world" grasp, it's mind blowing for me. However, today I was thinking about how my life is a string of notes in God's song, not my own. As I begin to grow, as well as everyone else, our lives begin to morph into one sophisticated, composed orchestra directed by God. Just as music is not always happy + peppy, neither is my life. While I'm imagining this beautiful analogy, what resonates within me the deepest, is that I have the opportunity to join in His song.
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Friday, May 11, 2012

Recently: A list

Recently:

I turned 18. It's hard to believe, but it's also very exciting.

I helped my brother cook a seven course French meal for his birthday (we're a year and eight days apart)

Finished my math for the week! only three more weeks then i'm done done. My only class left is math.

I can't believe I'm done with highschool. It's such a growing up moment. We had our co-op graduation ceremony and it was very sweet, even though it was small. :)

I turned in my new availability so hopefully I'll be able to work more often to save up for school in the fall.

I've been contemplating how great God is. He brought me so far and I'm just peaceful about the future.

I'm super glad it is friday--even though I don't have much school I like it because I get to go to work tomorrow, I really love my job!

I've been looking through my posts and I think I write a lot of deep things. I don't know if that's bad, i guess it's kind of boring, but i post about what i think about.

I'm going to be doing some redecorating soon, I hope to post pictures once I'm done. Have a great friday!


Monday, May 7, 2012

I have to admit

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 I have to admit, it's kind of weird to see your own face pop in your list of blogs. I was scrolling through the blogs that I read and a saw a picture of myself! I forgot that I had submitted a guest post for Ordinary Utopia.
Well, I did! I have my first guest post over at Ordinary Utopia. It's definitely weird to see my writing up over there, weird but a good. I really appreciate the opportunity to write a piece for those ladies, it was fun. Thank you!

So go check it out here! :)

Friday, May 4, 2012

An Ode to Jared

Today is a big day

it might be scary, it might

be both. You're quirky and

have really taken to musicals;

you're one of a kind.


You're my brother and

I've known you all my life.

Somehow, even though

I'm older, you tend to be

one step ahead of me.

I'm glad we're close in age.

We've done so many

things together.


Remember building forts

after a hurricane one year?

Or how about the trip to

Seaworld where I lost my

marbles and when you

rode Kraken apparently

againt your will? I hope

you were too scarred.


You've always been

an overachiever. For

pete's sake, you made a

pineapple upside down cake

by age seven. It has been neat to see

how you have taken to

photography and

how well you've gotten!


Here's to a great year! I'm

glad, blessed, and thankful to

be your sister.

Jared, Jared, awesome Jared

from your head down to your feet

there is nothing half so sweet as

Jared, Jared, awesome Jared.






Wednesday, May 2, 2012

nevertheless//although//regardless

Psalm 106:44
Nevertheless, he looked upon their distress, when he heard their cry.


In spite of perpetual and never ending sinning, God, for his benefit, his glory heard the cry of his people. How awesome is that? The fact that God didn't just destroy the rebellious Israelites the first time is a big deal. I mean come on, this is God were talking about. God who would have the right to do that. God who created the universe, ::Spoke:: life into motion, and cared for the creatures that are the representations of his likeness.


you told me to call
said you'd be there
and though I haven't seen you,
are you still there?
//barlow girl//

What about the times when I can't perceive God's nearness? What happened to"he heard their cry?" Sensing the nearness of God and trusting the promises about the nearness of God are two separate topics. Experiencing God's presence is such a joy and a gift. It is something to be cherished. However, it is easy for me to become immune to his presence, as if saying, " I'm here God, show me the presence I expect to receive from you." Sounds a little harsh? Well, that can be what my heart attitude it towards Him when I don't value time with him. As people, we are equipped with emotions, so it is not uncharacteristic for us to desire that which makes us feel good. But -- humans are finicky and God is steadfast. If I were to stop befriending someone just because I wasn't "feeling" it anymore shouldn't constitute whether or not I should still love that person. Relationships are two hands clapping, it involves two people participating together. The same thing applies with God. I can't demand anything from God, I have no right to. It is His gift to allow us to enter into His presence because of Jesus that means I should not take advantage of that. It also means I have a responsibility in my relationship with Christ. I can't only come to church expecting to get something without giving something of myself. I should come with a heart of thankfulness for all God has done and also not be afraid to come to Him with my troubles. Usually when I cannot perceive God's nearness in my life its usually because I have a hindrance blocking my view. (distractions, sin) I have to remind myself, in those times, that God is all-powerful, all-knowing, and always with me.

Monday, April 23, 2012

phone photo miscellany monday



linking with carissa :)

I bought my friend, Lizz, chickfila one day and brought it to our class :)


This is our family easter picture. My Mom and Dad are in the back. Trevor is next to mom and Mary is in front of Mom. Kennedy is behind Justino; they are both wearing blue. I'm in the floral dress in front of Jared.



Trevor sporting superman underwear at walmart in AZ :D


My occupation: cashiering. {this past sunday was my last shift as a minor--adulthood here i come!}




Look how big this sucker is! I love strawberries, and I'm glad the berries have been so ripe :)




Monday, April 16, 2012

My weekend

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{linking with Carissa}



1. 
Fruit bowls. Delicious fruit, pre-sliced, waiting for you, a rushed individual quickly throwing together a lunch. Or the not so rushed lady who liked to have convince at her finger tips, whatever the reason is, Publix has loving cut fruit up for your disposal. However, there is on slight disadvantage to the cashier.(i.e. me) The price of the item is on the front of the container, yet it always seems to get fudged or bent from the cooler to the register. Thus leaving me to awkwardly undo the label whilst the customer stares at me, oh the joy I tell you! Anyway, I think I'm going to suggest a change.

2. School. School is almost over! Yippee! I can't even really believe it. It came upon me so quietly and quickly, but I am ever grateful the time has almost come.  Approximately two week remain for my college classes and about three weeks for my homeschool classes. Then the week following being released from eight hour detention in a church building for something known as education, I'll graduate!!! : )

3. We had friends over for dinner this past saturday and that was such a lovely, hilarious time! I really enjoyed having the couple and their two kids over. Christian is two and Eliza is 6mo. At the dinner table Christian was asked to talk and his dad said, " Christian, can you said John Piper?" "John Pipa!" "Christian, justification." "jussication!" It was too cute! He then proceeded to outstretch both arms and wave frantically until you waved back, then he would bring his arms in across his chest and smile. I even got to hold Eliza during dinner. She eventually decided that everyone wasn't giving her the correct amount of attention and that she was hungry so, she started to cry.

4. While our friends were here, I noticed their kids had really strong and great attachment to their parents. We've been learning in our human growth and development class that attachment is a vital part of parenting. Especially for the child to succeed in interaction with others, for example. But attachment is a key component in the child developing period. Both of these children were very comfortable with other people holding them and playing with them. The coolest part for me was to actually get to see this in real life. We've been reading about this all semester, but to actually see what attachment looks like was really neat and rewarding for me. :)

5. Posts. I've recently read these posts and highly enjoyed them.

This series.
& this series bring tissues. it might be required and highly necessary. + this goes along with it but read parts one thru four first.
yuppppers-- this one too!
Just this blog in general, her awkward and awesome thursdays are the highlight of my week! :)


Friday, April 13, 2012

Nothing that is worthless

i will walk with integrity of heart within my house;i will not set before my eyes anything that is worthless.|Psalm 101:2b-3|



          Is this the desire of my heart, mind, soul, and strength? To not set anything worthless before me? Constantly I'm bombarded with the assaults of the world. Correctly used, the term molested comes to mind. Batterings on all sides, beatings in the most sensitive areas: the heart, brain, and lungs. The most valued--well, used to be valued-- things have been obliterated by the world. Purity, marriage, and life are disregarded. not valued.whatsoever.no. period. end.of.story. In music, magazines, commercials on t.v., t.v. shows, the radio: Satan's schemes are literally seeping in every area of my life. I'm under attack. And it is my responsibility to set before me, pure, lovely, honorable, and encouraging things to ponder.


          Enlighten me, O God. Renew my spirit within me. Help me to fight hard and strong, aid me in endurance. 


i need thee, O i need thee, every hour i need thee. my one defense, my righteousness, O God, how I need thee. 



Monday, April 9, 2012

thoughts floating around in my head

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1. My brother, Justino, turned 8 today! We had doughnuts for breakfast per his request and also his dinner of choice was hotdogs, mac'n cheese, green beans, and salad. Classy boy if I do say so myself.

2. A fellow classmate of mine stole my thunder. Yes, you read correctly. And boy did he EVER steal my thunder. ahem. context: We had oral presentations today in my composition class. Well--now that I think about it, what other kinds of presentations are there? Anyway, this fellow was the first to speak. And lo, and behold what did he talk about?Point one: Stem cell research. Embryonic stem cell research versus adult stem cell research. What is my research topic? Point two: See point one. It was so dreadful!! I wanted curl up in a ball and flop out of the classroom. Fall off the grid. Ohhhhhh it was awful.

3. I somewhat redeemed the day by getting re-emmeursed in Jane Eyre. I'm really beginning to enjoy this story. Those lovely british writers are known for taking their sweet time to get a story rolling and boy, oh boy, the story is trucking along :)

4. the most loveliest cousins of all were here. They made my week so much brighter. Even though shopping didn't really pan out so well. My two favorite memories were going to the beach and then eating Rita's ice= must have after a day in the sun. The second was playing Nertz a family card game that was introduced by another Uncle. It's basically tradition to play when you have four or more gathered. 

5. I went to see "October Baby" with my mom, my friend Kendall, and her mom. It was the most touching story.ever. See the trailer here. If you cried while watching that, or even got goosebumps, that means you need to go watch this. It was a very powerful and well done movie. It is about a girl who survived an attempted abortion and her journey to find her birth mother, along with her healing process.

6. I'm still stunned that I'm going to be graduating this year.wow. p.s. I'm going to a Junior/Senior banquet in a few days and I still don't have a dress//girl freak out mode. ; )

7.Please please please pray for my friend Lizz. I'm taking her to see this movie tomorrow and she is pro-choice, a democrat (not that it has anything to do with anything), and she seems to basically disagree on most points with me. However, she still wants to be my friend. I'm just praying this will open her eyes. She seems very unsure of what she actually believes; it seems hard for her to actually articulate her morals.

Saturday, April 7, 2012

tonight

Tonight was a crisp April evening. The combined families, numbering 17, gathered around one table tonight. It was kind of a special thing to see. It reminded me of the pilgrims first settling here in America. A long table, with many people surrounding it, and once again provided with food. It was neat to see big blended families joined. Not many people have "big" families these days, and that, I suppose, is okay.  However, it was especially heart-warming for me because family members aren't just those who I happen to reside with. That is what is so unique about family structures: they continue on and branch out into thin roots, causing more growth, projecting the tree upwards. The reason I love family is because even when you live six or more states away, you never ever really loose where you last paused your continuing story. Reminiscent as stories are flung across the table, kept to certain circles perhaps, and then projected out again with someone's loud, lovely laugh. It is in those moments, such as tonight, that I take this experience in and observe. As if I were sitting before a crackling fire sipping a warm drink, just taking it all in. And then of course, keep it hidden in my memory bank for sometime until we meet again. I find it fascinating how much I, personally, remember. After thinking about a particular memory, I tend to realize how one or more of my senses such a smell, touch, or taste were involved. Thus sealing the moment with a much tighter seal. Tonight, I've been doing that. When I think about pondering, I think about storing up instances, I think of Mary who stored up her memories in her heart.

All of this has been happening tonight, and while the extended family isn't here much longer, I'm sure I won't let these memories flop outside of  my building repertoire of things my brain fancies. Tonight, I'm trying to enjoy. So far, fairly successfully, and more recently because my cousin is playing beautifully on the piano right now. I might go make some tea now. I hope you are able to cherish the people that mean the most to you, tonight.

Monday, April 2, 2012

First run of the season!

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1. First of all, I have been totally out of the blogging loop save occasionally reading and adding a few comments. A lot has been going on, so I'm finally getting around to letting you all know :)

2.  I have been writing like a crazy woman. Last monday, I turned in the rough draft of my research paper. I'm so very glad to have that done. Well, I got that back today. I got a 95% on the assignment, yay! I really can't even believe that this semester is almost over!

3. dun dun dun! I ran for the first time this year!! :D I was sooooo excited to run. It felt wonderful. I ran one mile without stopping, woohoo! I was listening to music, about 10 feet from our mailbox and the ipod died. :( So, I have no idea what my time was. Either way, I had an awesome time! :)

Thursday, March 22, 2012

surprise!

Yesterday, I got my braces taken off! YAY! My teeth are so smooth; this is such a long anticipated removal.  My mouth is a slip 'n slide inside, it's great :)

Before my braces were taken off. I chose this picture because you can really see my braces.
This is a lovely snapshot my mom took of me while I was getting my retainer mold taken.
TAAADAAAAA! :) My white teeth and sunburned face. In person it's like staring at the blazing sun (my face) and seeing the white glory of an angel(my teeth)... AT THE SAME TIME. haha

{note the fine white line next to my necklace--pretty sure that's the one of the few un-maimed by the sun spots }